“You Know, Being At Soka, I Forget How Attractive I Am When I’m Off Campus…..&#822

HAHA LMFAO my bad for the random blog title, there are a few people who will get that inside joke. 

Anyways, right now I’m at my sister’s college up in Rock Hill, which is approximately 2 hours away from my home, Florence.  Why am I here?  Because my sister is here doing summer school work, but she is sick in bed with a kidney infection.  So, at around 11ish last night she posted on her FB that she might need to go to the hospital and after calling her we told her to go and that we would go and check up on her.  At the time we didn’t know what was going on, but in the rush, and me thinking that we would just go there and come back, I left my laptop and my cell phone charger and just brought along my iPod.  (sorry for the long sentence, I do my best to write how I would say it to another person.  Maybe my long writing wouldn’t seem so long to some if they read it like I would say it to them?)

Well that was a mistake…

Turns out that not only did we stay the night, but I’m still here at 5:38pm (eastern time) periodically checking up on her.  Yeah, I should have expected the overnight stay because we weren’t done taking care of her until she fell asleep at 4:30ish last night.  Here’s what I’m doing now:  Blogging on my sis’ computer with my cell phone turned off because my cell phone will die in about 10 mins if I left it on and checking up on her every 15 mins to make sure she is drinking enough liquids so she can flush her kidneys out.  But you know something, I have to make something clear to everyone about how we do in the Kelly family:

We ALWAYS Look Out For Each Other, No Matter What

My sister isn’t one of the most…expressive…when it comes to conveying emotions.  I think that’s a trait that my little brother and sister share…well….somewhat.  My sister will let you know when she is angry and so will my brother, but when they are distressed over something that they don’t want you to know about, then they put on their best poker faces that could have anyone fooled.  If I wasn’t around them my whole life, I would have never been able to read them.  With my brother, it’s body language that really expresses how he feels, and with my sister, it’s the way she says things that may give hints as to what she’s really feeling.  Are you wondering if I have a tell or not?  Alright, I’ll let you in on mines that I’ve noticed lol

See, I hate making eye contact with people; not because I’m afraid to, but for some reason when I look at them in the eyes, I concentrate on maintaining that contact, and as a side effect my comprehension on what they are actually saying decreases.  So, if I’m not looking at you in the eye, then that means that I’m actually listening to what you are saying.  But, if I’m doing something else and I don’t respond, then that just means that I haven’t heard you at all lol.  Also, I ask people to repeat things pretty often because I have trouble hearing things sometimes.  I’ve had this problem since I was young and it may be partly due to the way my eardrums are since I was born. (I was born with a tiny hole in both of my eardrums which I have had surgery for over my lifetime)

Sorry for talking around it, but here are my tells, and you’ll see why I stated the previous paragraph before I said these:

Tell#1-  If I look you in the eye, and you’re not an employer, teacher, or anyone of that caliber, then I’m probably furious and more likely than not not listening to what you are saying.  I know I’m backwards, but that’s just how I work.

Tell#2-  I don’t lie very often at all, but if you look at me and ask me a direct question and I say “Say that again?”, then you probably caught me in something.  It’s either that, or I can’t believe something that I just heard and imma need that person to run that by me again. 

Tell#3-  If I don’t talk at all, all day, then that means that I need to sort some things out.  Just let me think and keep talking (most of the time I enjoy listening to people talk) and I’ll get at you.

This may sound like this is all separate from each other, but I’mma relate it back to da family statement that I made earlier, don’t worry.  The whole point in me talking about my siblings’ idiosyncracies was to bring home the point of how my family, and how we believe families should, always takes care of our own, even if it goes unappreciated at the time.  Here’s what I mean:  My sister will probably not thank us for coming all the way out here and taking care of her.  And that’s due to many reasons: medicine she’s on, she’s irritable, and she probably thinks it’s a given.  But even if it goes unsaid, and even if she has no intention of even giving us the time of day for whatever reason that may be, as her family we had to make sure that she was good.  Why is that?  Because that’s what fam does.

Right now my mother and my step-father are sleeping while I’m blogging.  My mother has been so stressed out since we told my sis to go to the hospital.  Imagine your child, who is temporarily out of your care, calls you crying in pain.  Imagine you driving up two hours at 12am after working all day not even knowing what’s wrong with your child.  Think about how it would feel to watch your daughter wince from a pain in her side right before throwing up the food that she recently ate.  Now, think about how my mother has been feeling about this whole ordeal, keep in mind that she also has a broken ankle with stitches and screws in due to an accident about 3 weeks ago.  People have been asking me when I’ll be back in town so we can hang out and stuff, and I say with a smile “IDK”.

Why would I say it with a smile?  Well, because I don’t mind taking care of my baby sister when she’s in pain.  I enjoy seeing my mother smiling while she is sleeping instead of having an upset disposition.  I was suppose to be gettin my new swagg on this weekend, but who knows if that will happen as I planned it to.  But you know what?  THAT’S WHAT FAMILY DOES!  And I’d happily do it all over again too.  So, I’ll continue to let my mother rest while I take care of my sister.  And my sister’s infection isn’t bad, so she’ll be alright after she gets rest.

Thank you all that have been supportive of me and thank you to the ones that kept her in ya prayers.  I believe that no prayer goes unanswered, regardless of what religion y0u believe in.  The ones going towards my sister have def been answered to, so I’m thankful for that. 

Let me back away from the serious talk tho. 

Let me put you up on some music that I’m really feelin because of how beautiful it is:

Very Good Friends – Blue Six   –  I like this song because of the chords playing in the background setting the mellow tone of the whole song.  In addition to that, the mellow voice of the woman singing makes it all the more better.  I wish I could describe it better, but I think you should listen to it to see what I mean.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6JRPCQKhoM

No Use – Jazzanova   –   I like this song because the syncopation of the drummer in this song along with the beautiful background music is just genius.  And the lyrics, just like in the above link, really hit home to me as well.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=afXiREORKBg

Final Fantasy X – Final Battle   –   Now, don’t judge me for it being a final fantasy song, but Nobuo Uematsu is a musical genius that should not be overlooked just because he does video game music.  In this more orchestrated piece, it’s a song that truly displays the urgency of this fight being the Final Battle.  There are so many complicated things going on in this piece that I could write a paper on everything that is apparent.  Time changes, syncopation, chords, the tempo and emotion behind the song…..well, you listen to it and tell me what you think.  BTW, he arranged the song, but I’m pretty sure he did the hella good piano part himself.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VboF8DRcjIo

Alright, my fam is starting to wake up and I’ve talked a lot already, so I’ll leave it at this.  My apologizes to the one that likes it better when I speak proper english instead if incorporating my own vernacular into my writing.  Like I said, if you read this as if I was speaking it, then I think it sounds better. =) and if it doesn’t bother any of my readers, then fuck it, please enjoy and please continue to read.  Last thing: I changed the background to my blog page.  I hope you like it because I think it looks a lot better than the last one.

Alright, I’m out.

P N B C

James Shonin Kelly III