The Man In The Mirror
- James Kelly
- Jun 29, 2011
- 3 min read
…It’s been awhile hasn’t it?
In some ways, it’s been way too long, but many things have been happening so fast that it’s sometimes even hard to find time to breathe.
It’s all good though, I got a little time now.
First things first, I must say Happy Belated Birthday to Snowfield Rhapsody.
I remember when blogging was first proposed to me by my homie Onye while talking about many mind blowing things. Who would have thought that it would lead to me having over 60 posts with over 1,000 total views? Some might hate and think that number may be small within the span of 365 days, but this “small number” of people supporting Snowfield Rhapsody helped me though many rough spots. Re-reading some of my older posts made me realize how much I’ve grown and how much further I need to go. But, when I first started I slowly grew from 2 readers to 4 to 6 to now, on average, 18-20. That’s not counting the re-reads of the really good posts that the viewers relate to. From the bottom of our hearts, we thank you for sticking with us through thick and thin and we hope that you will continue to read this blog in the future.
Future plans for this blog that I will slowly do my best to incorporate:
Reading more blogs and re-blogging ones that I like, especially my friends’ blogs
Updating older blogs that still receive views
Do better to express my ideas more clearly and edit more closely
Try to at least have a blog or two each week, but with a emphasis on quality over quantity
More hyperlinks to older blogs where similar ideas have been stated and maybe better organize the blogs that I have already written into categories.
Try to include more pictures and maybe vlog instead of a post sporatically
Please look out for these changes and I hope these will add to the overall experience of this blog.
Onto the main point of this blog, I’ll be pretty quick since I am limited on time. Recently, I’ve been doing my best to become the man that I see in the mirror. When I look in the mirror, I’m convinced that I see the real me; however, when I see myself on video and in pictures and hear the impression of what people think of me the first word that comes to my head is, “Wrong.” Many times I feel as though no one has a clear and accurate idea of who James Shonin Kelly III actually is, but lately I’ve grown to become more accepting of that.
Before this accepting, I hated it. And part of me still hates it because I feel as though I work hard at trying to be the person that I feel that I am. It’d be fine if it was just some people didn’t agree with my own personal idea of who I am, but if no one does but maybe a choice few? It makes one think about what people actually see vs. what you can see. But earlier I mentioned that I am more accepting of it. And I am. However, accepting that people will see me differently than the way I see myself does not solve the issue of not seeing myself reflected in images, videos, etc.
The issue isn’t completely physical, mental, spiritual, or emotional. It could possibly be a combination of all or none at all; what I do know is that I am taking more proactive steps in becoming that person that I see every morning. Even if others will never see what I see, at least I will be able to see it. And right now, I’m the most important person that I need to take care of.
Final thoughts on this: I guess the best way to sum it up would be that I see all the potential that I have, and recently I’ve been able to tap into that potential in ways that will allow me the person that I see everyday in the mirror. I’ll do my best to show people that potential through my actions, but if they do not see it then that’s ok. However, I have to see for myself that that potential is apparent in everything that I do/attempt no matter the situation. Until I see that, I think I’ll never be the man that I see in the mirror. Until I see that, I shall remain a Young Man Working On My Grown Man Status.
Once again, thanks for reading~
Peace N Be Easy
Snowfield Rhapsody
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