Hoe Trick #1 – “Baby I’m Pregnant”

No one wants to hear these words if they weren’t aiming to have a baby.

But, I betcha that people perk up and listen when you say those words.

Most people that are caught by this are entitled to a little skepticism, but that can turn out badly if the situation is in fact what it is.  When I was in high school, for a very brief period of time, I had people randomly ask me if I had a kid on the way.  You best believe that my heart initially stopped when I heard that phrase.

The main point that I was tryna make with this is this:  people will always say things to you that you know may not be true, but you go along with it anyways.  “We should hang out” or “I’ll call you back” may not be extreme examples, but I think that the ending result turns out similarly.

Today I wasn’t as productive as I would have like to have been but at least I was productive and didn’t procrastinate.  That’s at least a step in the right direction no?  I got my study abroad application done, and that is no thanks to me practicing my organization skills.  If you didn’t know, I wanted to get into this program (Kansai) for my study abroad portion of my education, but I missed the GPA requirement to apply by 0.04.  I was bummed about that, but the Nagoya program isn’t looking too bad right now.  Not only is the program competitive because only two people can get in, but I hope the other person that I chooses to go will be fine with me being their study abroad ‘partner’.  Well, whatever happens will happen, but I’ll do my best to be easy and to just have a good time.

Believe me or not, I think about how I behave a lot more consciously than what people may think that I do.  And I’m pretty sure I’ve become even more self aware of what I do since I’m checked on everything that I do, especially with the things that I say.  But now that I have people paying literal attention to every single little detail rather than seeing the whole picture, I have to work 10003489982329382 billion times harder to find the exact words at that exact moment, or else it will lead to problems and misunderstandings in the immediate (even relatively far away) future.  At least I listen to people when they speak.  That’s a plus, right?

*sigh* I feel as if everything is in a clutter at this point in time.  My room’s a mess, work is a mess, money is a mess, getting organized for class is a mess, etc. etc.  One step at a time I suppose.  I need a haircut =/.  I wanted to hit the gym today, but my stuff is still in the process of being shipped from SC.  The trip back here was much more easier than going because everything was approximately 10 lbs lighter, but I don’t have any work out shoes, some books that I need, etc.  So if you see/n me kinda wearing the same general outfits recently, then it’s only because I have to match with the only pair of shoes that I have right now – my vans.  At least they go hard tho haha.

I think this is the last thing I’ll talk about tonight before I start wrappin this blog up.  To my homies out there:  If you have a girl waitin on you while you dealin with another girl, then not only do you have a good woman, but you’re lucky.  Maybe I don’t know many good girls like that, but real talk let me have a chance with a good one and I’ll show you what’s good.  Girls back home….let’s just say that they don’t put up with that bull.  I’ll just say this; be happy with what you have and be aware of all the things, people, etc. that you do have in your life.  One friend of mine eagerly reminded me of that, and I thank her for that even though we may not see eye to eye on things lol.

The next three…..actually all this week is going to be busy and this is just the beginning.  I got people looking at me this semester since I’ve stated that I can do much better than what I’ve been doing.  I have reasons as to why things are the way they are now, but now there are none.  Now it’s fly or die.  Put up or shut up.  As a black young man, I gotta show the world what I can do.  And if you’re reading this blog, please understand that I’m figuring myself out just as much as you’re tryna figure me out.  But to better understand me, think about what I’m writing not only in a literal sense, but also see the general picture that I paint with my words.  See past what you initially see and you will start to see little nuances within my writing and actions that will give you a sense of who James Shonin Kelly III is.

I think I’m going to keep a small list of things that pop into my head as I did when I first started out with this blog.  At least that way I can keep giving my opinion on various topics.

Also as a mild disclaimer:  Whatever I say in this blog, even if it is directed at my audience, it’s just how I feel about things.  I’m not trying to tell anyone how to live their lives, but to give you insight into my life and how I see things.  If my writing does help you in a direction in which you choose to live your life by, then by all means do it.  Just know that I’m human and I’m CERTAINLY not perfect so please do not think that I have everything figured out or anything like that.  These are just thoughts, but feedback is appreciated. =)

P N B E (Peace N Be Easy)

James Shonin Kelly III