Exaustion, The Beauty of Dubstep, and A Missed Opportunity (maybe)

What’s good peoples?  I don’t think this blog will be too long, but since I haven’t written in awhile I thought I would put this out there.

I AM EXHAUSTED!!!!

Fuck, you have no clue.  I feel like I have jet-lag like when I came back from China or like how I was during finals; I’m so tired that I can’t go to sleep.  But when I do fall asleep, I knock the fuck out on the real.  And my bad if my language isn’t as elegant as it usually is.  Many people slip into their comfort zones when they are tired, and this language is just easiest to think in, so my bad for the profane language you may encounter reading this.

At least I have these two days off.  Now I can take care of all my car stuff, by my plane ticket, and get myself together to enjoy the last couple weeks that I have left in my apartment.  After many difficulties, I am genuinely enjoying it here and I know I will appreciate the time I spent here a lot more when I look back on it in the future.  Just gotta get my shit together, ya feel me?

Recently, I’ve been up on that new Ne-Yo ish “Champagne Life” kinda hard.  I like how mellow his voice is and I like how he approaches topics like drinking more sophisticatedly than other artist.  BUT, the real shocker is this Dub-step song  called “Project Jenova” by DatsiK that has had my interest since I heard it on the way to EDC.  This music intrigues me because in music, the beat is usually….well, just the beat in the background.  But in Dub-Step, the 808 and bass IS the melody and rhythm, and the rest just adds to it.  And when I realized this while listening to this song, this made me think about how this kind of music can really rub people the wrong way.  Many people wouldn’t enjoy it like me because it’s so different’ than what they are used to hearing in normal music.  I Love It.

While listening to Ne-Yo and DatsiK, I was reading the blog(s) of someone who I felt I had a chance to make something happen with last year.  But, due to certain circumstances, we had to keep it movin.  Bad timing under time constraints = a struggle.  I’m sad that it didn’t work out, but after reading some things, I started thinking about peoples’ expectations in what they want out their significant other.  Soooooo many people have such high standards without wantin to actually look at the nigga that’s tryna get at them.

Now this doesn’t come from the previous shawty’s blog or anything about her at all; I’m just speaking in general now.  If you are really tired of being single, then why be so picky?  Yeah, if you have new rules in place because of past relationships, then thats chill.  On da same token, tho, give a nigga a chance.  I’m not just talkin about women here, it’s just a lot less common for a man to reject women as I see women rejecting men (in terms of relationships, not sex).  *sigh* Idk where I’m going with this, I’m just puttin it out there that I think ladies need to cut out that picky shit.  You know what you like and don’t like, but if you aren’t sure if y0u like it or not, why not try it out?  Yeah, I’m gettin off this subject, that’s basically what I wanted to say cuz somethin similar will prob show up in another future blog haha

I was just looking at the way I type (past compliments, skype convos, etc.) and I’m annoyed.  If I were to look at my comments and speech patterns from a different perspective, I would call myself immature and childish.  I use da fuck outta smiles and my signature “haha” at the end of sentences instead of lol.  I may have mentioned this situation before, but what I’m going to say I’m pretty sure I’ve brought up before.  I HATE MISUNDERSTANDINGS!!!  Them shits get on my nerves, and I do my best to avoid them.  Maybe because when I read something from someone that i know, I attach their voices to what they say so I can understand the context in which the sentence was meant, especially when they don’t use smileys at all.  Shit, that’s what they are for right?  To give people a way to express emotion through text.  Even if the context is understood, I feel that without smiles, the tone of the phrase can often be misconstrued.

Who knows, maybe no one gives a damn whether I use smiles or not.

Yeah,the theme of people not caring about what I have to say comes up a lot as well.  Let me clarify what I mean then.  I don’t give a fuck what people think about me, I just worry about it when it could potentially fuck me over in the future.  (side note:  I just nodded off at my keyboard and I almost fucked up my blog haha)

So, I’ll keep the thoughts coming as long as y’all keep readin.

SC N BP (Stay Cool N Be Easy)

Peace

James Shonin Kelly III

(PS- Sorry for all the typos that I may have.  I hate going back over what I read because I never am satisfied with what I originally write.  But I only feel this way if I re-read what I do, I feel accomplished and happy when I just do it and become done with if it.  Just for FYI)